yesterday or rather today, is a damn fucking sad monthsary.. i cried during our monthsary. how sad and pathetic. guess it was my hormones who's talking.. or rather the frustrated innerself.. dunno what the hell am I shouting for too..



he wont say those comforting yet protective words because he wasnt in "that" circle.. fancy bf telling me to protect myself instead of HE protecting me. I made a HUGE fuss about it.. only god knows what I'm thinking.. yeah. someone touched and I mean, the whole damn hand was touching my big huge butt and stroke my elephant thigh with so much gentle that I almost thought and WISH that It was Jeffrey who's doing the deed. from Dover to Jurong East. the horror. initially was okay, until he "moved" his little brother down there when his "brother" was leaning forward against my left beautiful butt. tt was pure gross. he proceed on to letting go of his secure hand which was holding on to the pole.. and lean hisbody againts mine so he wont fall when the train jerks, while I'm being sandwiched and breast-elbowed by another tall man infront. what am I suppose to do in this situation? before he left, he gentle remove his pervertic hands off my thigh and walk off just that. God.



initially dint want to tell my bf. maybe I shldnt have.



I rather tell my friend about it. at least they stand by me. thank you.



half-crying abt it, bf forgotten abt our monthsary.. I cant blame him. he's bz.



was chatting with bf. and messaging ahma at the same time. I found back my comfort, back in her. she had happy news with her. and I dont want to spoil her mood, so I dint tell her our problems then. I regretted neglecting them for him.. this mistake paid it's price.. and I'm truely regretting my action. hopefully my besties able to read this and I wanna apologise..

hopefully we could still have our girls day out.. and I promise.. it's all girls day out.. =) let's go clubbing! xD

to baba: SI BABA! die where le! =X get well soon! super fast recovery! =D still waiting for u to come singapore worh.. if I go Msia, tumpang ur kereta hor! xD

I just realise, nono, I realise long time ago.. we're of difference too much.. to him, is small matter. but to me, it MATTERS! things are getting too comfortable for each other.. we let loose of our inner monster. i hate it.

gonna keep myself EVEN BUSIER!
that's what JH told me.. did I tell u guys before? I admitted to him that I once, liked him? LOL! glad that he still IS my friend.. a friend that is free after august and rotting to death in his office.. =X soon, he'll see MR,BOTAK. david also seeing MR.BOTAK. so is QiQi! omg! suddenly, my guy friends all go botak.. lol!

I'm kinda curious how mr Deli look like in real life, despite being online friends for 3/4 years already.. amazing huh? you CAN find real friend through online.. just know how to pick.. another gentleman friend is Johnson.. =D the one who can really splurge on me, not with goods, but FOOD! *is that an insult??* haha.. but he's a man of his own world.. not even his gf can intrude into his world. lolx. stop smoking la! so smelly.. zzz and mr muscleman! been arranging and arranging meetup with him, but seems like neither of us are free.. no luck! mr deli's best friend is in SP. studying in the same Minor school as me. but, I NEVER SEE HIM IN SCHOOL!

ohhhh ya! yesterday I saw CS. omg. he's grinning from ear to ear. and I confirm he did took a few glance of me. unless my eye really cock. worst is, he's with a friend that bytch knows! gosh what a small world. and I dont get to see CK anymore.. he graduated.

ohh no. someone reminded me of BRAYANI! ==" wonder did he get back to his chio gf or not.. lost contact..

I wanna work! I wanna work work work! =D if time allows I wanna take more assignments.. or maybe work in other sector. hopefully I able to get through this sememster.. then next sem, i can work more often. then wont think nonsense anymore.